Teenagers

No words could explain how badly I just wish I was cuddled up next to somebody and maybe kissing them, but just honestly not there for sex or anything, just being close to someone and knowing they care about me and hoping they know I care about them. Not necessarily in a couple-way, but just someone who means something to me. I’m sick of hookups. for once, I want someone to tell me they love me, give me kisses on the forehead, send me goodnight texts.
And the damn thing is I don't even know who I'm infatuated with right now. I do like him, not a lot right now, but I sensed sparks. The problem is I just don't think he's interested, highly doubt that.. I get these mixed scenarios in my mind unintentionally these last few days, they confuse me. I'm living in this bubble of fantasy and it just isn't healthy. 
The most painful feeling is the feeling of loneliness, that couldn't be shrugged off. Who are those people? Are they your friends? Are they just plain strangers who you converse with in class? Or are you just worried that they might prefer those bitches over you? 
I'm confused and stressed and desperate and running out of time.