Save me

In every cloud there is a silver lining. And it turned out my silver lining is totally up to my attitude, the way I look at life as a whole. Things aren't that bad, probably not at all. I'm now suspicious that sometimes I might have hallucinations. It's like someone's changed the lens of my glasses from pink to grey. At that moment everything just seems damn gloomy and pessimistic, though eventually they grey wears off and the world is switched back to each original colour again.
I'm kinda glad I have Alfred and Regina, doesn't mean I own them or anything like that. But with Alfred even in my shittiest mood, he's able to crack me up, always. He would have the stupidest arguement with me just to prove his non existent point. He would listen to the most childish to deepest thing I'd ever share. He's just, too lovely for his own good. And I wonder if people sees him like I do too because I'm kinda glad we're friends. Best friend forever lookatalfredhessohot even (:
Regina, now she's not like the usual type of people I'd be close too. The total opposite of Regina George. She brings out the good in me, balancing me out like an equation. She would console me in every single situation where I decide to vent. Honestly, she's the sweetest thing ever. We do get on well as some people wondered, just in a different way.
And there's Justin, our frienemy relationship acts as a laugh dose for me everyday. It's fun just letting loose and insult your asses off without ever feeling guilty. Justin is nice, as I just discovered (: despite calling me fat, ugly and stupid everyday, he does indeed have a heart. Possibly quite a big one. (holy fuck look at how wrong that sounds...)
There are so many other great people I've met recently. College isn't bad at all, despite the enormous amount of work I have. In the end it better all be worth it though.
Sometimes, no, most of the time I wish he could just loosen up a little more so I could get to know him better. I do. I can see such potentials in there, and it's hard to write your heart down knowing there are people reading this, probably just out of curiosity and possibly judging your every word. I do only give out URL to a few trusted close friends though. How the hell....
Life's still good. And my pageview increases to like 15 everyday. I was wondering who the hell actually read my blog?! Who the hell actually have the link?! Despite the creepiness, I don't think I have much to hide. Although I might change my URL in the near future to get a little bit more of privacy, just in case.