Lonely Days

I couldn't cry no more. I think the ability of producing tears had left me ages ago, since when I decided that I don't have a heart... But I can still feel it, it's not the feeling when you fall down the stairs, it's not like when someone call you a bad name, it hurts deeper, like a paper cut. The future is now blurry and I hate to admit it, but I'm scared. Like really really scared. I wish she never said those words. I wish this morning was all a nightmare that it never happened.. She can't just send me back can she? My life is gonna be over. Literally. My dad won't be able to afford it.. She can't just leave me.. Considering I'm her child too.. But who knows? She's been known as the cold hard bitch whose priority is herself and money.. She has connections, not friends. She has respect, not love. She has a career, not a life.
I'm lost, actually really lost. Will everything turn out to be ok? In the end?

I feel too lonely these days it's not even funny.
Note to self: Don't bother wishing at 11:11 anymore. It stopped working.