The emptiness in the bottom draw..

I found out something today. Something I really wish I didn't know.
She likes him. Fancies him. Finds him appetizing. Whatever.
And I guess he fancies her too...
God dammit why do I always want the things that I can't have?
Why can't thing go my way just once?

I unsubscribe him, in order to forget. I doubt it will work, but at least I tried?.. Ollie told me the best way to get over someone is to get on top of someone else... Are those words really true? I do need to let go, there's no use in holding on to this, to him. Cause I will never be his first choice, ever. Nor anyone else's..
Forbisea Music was fuuuun. I meant it lifted my emo mood instantly which I do appreciate. NOW I know Neil Pattrick Harris's real FULL name is Roderick Hugh Howie... What a fucking turn off.. I meant even Neil sounds better than Roderick, some fucking cartoon name... He's hot though, so it's ok :D Can't wait till November 10 for Beijing <3 <3 <3 <3 <3