The epilogue for my first drafted story

I don't want to let those feelings dominate my life anymore. In fact, I'm done. With ever making an effort to please him. I'm so tired of this, I'm so tired of his immaturity and his self-absorbed personality. Hang on a second, so all this time, I've been coming to college 2 hours earlier than usual every Friday, waiting for his call which never comes on Skype, checking my phone every break we have in common, JUST in order to be a "good friend". Seriously wtf was I even thinking? It's time I come to lucidity... If I do fancy him, that'll be a different matter, but I didn't, I don't. So technically, the fact that I crave for attention and good company drove me to the border of thinking that I liked him, problem fucking solved.

I know this is none of my business but since I'd sound incredibly bitchy if I'd ever voice my own opinions out loud, I guess this should be the dumpster for my honest thoughts. Ryan could do so much better than whoever he thinks were hot or Ji Young. I'd rate his personality 8/10. And the fact that Ji Young treats him like utter shit, especially today after Mark told me, pisses me off. No nice guy deserves to be ignored and lied to. Plus, even then, Ryan still chases after her. Why? Why? Why?
Anyway, Ashley and I've become quite close recently, as Regina and I kinda drifted apart. That crazy crazy girl, man. You couldn't help but love her. Andrew, Ashley and I are literally stuck together forever for any projects whatsoever. IDEKY. We're like the 3 musketeers.

My obsession over Lana Del Rey hasn't faded...

I want to sneak out with somebody. I just want to get up in the middle of the night and spend some time alone with someone. We could go have a midnight snack at McDonald’s or just walk around and talk about things we normally wouldn’t. Or maybe we could go enjoy ourselves at a park and play on the swings, or we could climb a roof and just watch the stars in silence - nothing but just good vibes and good company.