Baby heavens in your eyes

It's all a little odd. I'm estranged by my own emotions, alienated by my own responds.
It just doesn't feel like it's there when we talk. My subconscious doesn't even attempt to feel the infatuation.
They say love is like fart, if you have to force it, it's probably shit.
We're just 2 friends enjoying each other's company. The silence is not awkward, but rather comfortable. We aren't nervous, but rather at ease. It's like I could be just myself around him and so can he.

So again, he mentioned the "crush". Me, being my usual self, tried to dig in to the core of this unsuccessfully...  Cong is 90% out of the question, thank god. "What if he's hot?" he said. Well what if? Then again, something like that coming from Justin? Do you really expect me to buy that? Justin doesn't compliment anyone, especially the same sex, knowing how cocky he is.
Well then what does it leave me with?

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