I woke up wanting to kiss you

Today was one of the most unproductive days of my life, although surprisingly I was almost too content and excited for my birthday to care. We watched that stupid Lucky Luke movie in French, it was rather bad constructed cause of its age. The main guy is fat, ok not fat fat but hell not muscular.. Quite amazing he's got such a sexy flapper :O Their sex scene was censored by Mr Roux wrinkly hand infront of the projector lens. We all lol-ed whenever there's a hot scene, cause even though his hand was big enough to turn the screen pitch black, he could not censored the orgasm :D
Gossip Girl last night. Stupid Charlie/Ivy, picked such an amazing time to come out of the dark.. I actually started to like her character for once, now she has to be gone :( :O FML. Chuck and Blair found their lost love again.. And typical, the writer must hate this couple a lot. They got into a car accident. and.... Chuck might be dead!
Tomorrow is my 16th birthday. No one could actually understand how much that means to me. From when I was really little, I always dreamed of a big ass sweet 16 bash, but guess what, when the event comes.. It turned out to be absolutely everything I've not expected. I'm laying low this year, like real low. Apparently I just found out there are a lot of bad news from my dad's company.. So many bills, so few payments. Idk, I know it's not really my problem but I'm scared.. For him, for our family, considering college starts next july.. How are they gonna afford it? Especially when I really badly want to take IB.. The future is so blurry I don't even wanna face it any longer, but sooner or later, it'll be alright, wont it?