November 7

One weekend of successfully stayed at home and got something done.
I don't know how to feel lately. So many things happened, mostly bad things. How there's some stupid rumour going around that I lied about losing my virginity to David and I told everyone I got with Kerr... And somehow I'm always the last one to find out about those shit ABOUT ME. What the actual fuck? Amazing how people could twist things the way they want.. If lying and bitching is an occupation those people must make billions.. So yes, I'm taking a break from "the popular people" as they want to address themselves. The rumours will calm down in time, hopefully. Fucking hell I'm always the fucking victim. Sorry for all the swearing, it happens pretty often now as I'm usually pissed off. Most of them are so horrible it's hard to even get pass the idea of someone liking them.. They're either equally bitchy or debt. Which means at the end of the day, all we really have is ourselves, and nothing in the world can make you feel more alone than that.

I watched Pearl Harbor today, cried through the whole movie. It was incredible, almost magical. Although I would much prefer if she would choose Rafe over Danny when he came back, it broke my heart to see Rafe like an outcast who was just a replacement of Danny when he died. Rafe and Eve started out so wonderfully I couldn't take my eyes off the screen even for just one second, and the part when they waved goodbye through the glass door I broke down into tears. Their love is almost perfection.